I know I said I was going to try and post less negative stuff this year, but holy hell, life saw that post and has been doing everything it can against that.
I've been consistently in one of the shittiest mindspaces I've ever been in. Things at home consistently get worse, I've been stood up or dropped more times than I can count, and had more things be cancelled, pulled from me, or simply made no longer an option.
I'm feeling alone. Alone and in constantly growing pile of shit that pulls me further and further from hope and happiness. I absolutely notice a pile of key symptoms of depression in me, and they're all here and screaming.
A lot of things need to change even with so much stacked against me.