Utility

Lux came over for his birthday, because he wanted to have some big get together with the people he cares about.  It had a wonderful turnout, and was honestly a great time.  We played video games afterward, and wound up being silly and having fun.

When we got back to my place, we were tired, but being us, sex was the higher priority at that point. 

Now, we haven't had much time to really decompress together.  There's been a lot of stress for both of us, and not much time to have that emotional release.  When I saw him on Father's day we snuck away for ten minutes for a quick fuck, as quiet as we could be while trying to go as hard as we could.  Then when he came down when the house was empty, there was a lot of loud sex, but again, that hard, rough sex to take the edge off of how we needed to fuck again.  Which was fun, in case that isn't obvious.

This time, in the two weeks we didn't see each other, there was a lot of emotional stress for both of us.  We have been acting as each other's rock, and trying to help as much as we can.  This time, instead of the lust driven, hard, exhaustive sex, we had the mind clearing, slower sex that sort of resets your stress levels and lets you feel more centered. 

It also lets me enjoy how hot Lux is more.  Because if I haven't mentioned it lately, he is damn sexy. 

And, despite his doubting in power exchange recently, during these slower times, he winds up being far more dominant, and this was no different.  He probably had more focus on power exchange than he has in a very long time, and I appreciated and enjoyed every moment of it.  He seemed to get more comfortable with it throughout the night, and into the morning (because it's normal for us to fuck before bed, in the middle of the night, and as we wake up), as his emotional state sort of settled, and knew that I was here, no matter what.

There is such a difference in all the sex we have, it's interesting to look at sometimes.  We also discussed things about sex and Pennsic, with how he would enjoy getting to fuck a ton of people, beat them, with me there to help, then enjoy time fucking me, and snuggling off to sleep, but he's perfectly happy if we wind up fucking constantly and that's all.

It is wonderful to have a partner who finds emotional comfort in me, and is open about wanting to have other partners, but has no intention of having any less sex with me either way. 

I am very lucky to have dominant like him, and I'll have to be sure to be extra well behaved while we're gone together, and spoil him rotten so he knows how much I appreciate him.