While this wasn't the easy, joyous trip I may have wanted, there was still a lot of good from it. Time with the people I care about, trying to build and rebuild connection. Time to be silly, and get things done. Trying new things, and helping make experiences.
And that means that coming home, without the knowledge of when I'll see any of them again, came with some drop.
Which meant a couple of days of feeling like I just couldn't get into routine again. Didn't want to do the things I knew I should, and forcing myself, only because I knew it would mean I would be swamped if I didn't.
Along with that, we're trying to get Squishy ready for school again, and she isn't doing the best with things. It's creating even more stress and anxiety for me, which compounds with drop. To top it off, my parents went right back to abusive gaslighting tactics with me, and within 48 hours of being home, threatened to kick me out.
I'm trying to get back to productivity, but my environment and brain aren't quite helping.
And that means that coming home, without the knowledge of when I'll see any of them again, came with some drop.
Which meant a couple of days of feeling like I just couldn't get into routine again. Didn't want to do the things I knew I should, and forcing myself, only because I knew it would mean I would be swamped if I didn't.
Along with that, we're trying to get Squishy ready for school again, and she isn't doing the best with things. It's creating even more stress and anxiety for me, which compounds with drop. To top it off, my parents went right back to abusive gaslighting tactics with me, and within 48 hours of being home, threatened to kick me out.
I'm trying to get back to productivity, but my environment and brain aren't quite helping.
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