In many ways, I've gotten better over the last year while in a healthy relationship. Rabbit and I have given each other a space to be our ugliest selves without judgement, and without any risk of the other person running away. It's allowed us to confront parts of ourselves that we didn't realize were aspects of trauma, so that we can grow and have a chance to truly heal. And in many ways, it's been beneficial. It drives me to be better for him, better for me, and better for us, while allowing me to reflect and see how much change has occurred since our relationship began. I find that I don't have anywhere near the anxiety about speaking up that I did, nor the fear of conflict or having needs in general that I used to have. I'm able to just be happy in a relationship, and look forward to the future, while also enjoying the present. What it unfortunately also does though, is make everything that isn't being tended to feel raw. No longer shoved away and
My life is such an odd and surreal rollercoaster of kink, mischief, body modification and wonderment. Read along, and see the new pages of the journey that is my life, with all the sex, trouble, friends, family, pain, and adventure.